Everyone handles grief differently. Some shut down and retreat into their own world, while others throw themselves into work, the roles we assume, relationships, and other things… any thing, that will fill the gaping hole that loss has left behind. For me, the moments after my miscarriages were still. I quickly learned that no amount […]
I first miscarried in 2011. Only a few people even knew I was pregnant, and I didn’t talk about it until a year later. I stood up in my sisters wedding a week after the loss, I went back to work, and I moved through life pretty numb. I remember one of my friends, who […]
I know this looks a lot like the same shot I posted a couple weeks ago, but if you look closely, you will notice it’s changed in small ways. It has slowly been filled with sweet notions that represent myself, James, our hopes of who she will be + hopefully inspiration for whoever she […]
So, you may have heard the good news… If not, check this out That’s right, I’m knocked up!! We are over the moon, crazypants excited that we are pregnant. If you have been following my story, then you know what a journey this has been, and what a really special this moment is. If you’re […]
Goodbye summer, and hello fall. Goodbye cycle one, and hello cycle two… Yesterday, I talked my doctor into a pregnancy test on my blood work, because I was too impatient to wait 9 more days. I got the NEGATIVE news late last night and thought I was fine. This morning I was not fine. I […]
When I was home in December, I saw a psychic and she spoke mostly of a career change that was coming, but she briefly spoke on kids too. She suggested I start using crystals to promote pregnancy, but at the time, I just wasn’t open to being pregnant again. Now, I am wide open! We […]
When I look at you, I see myself. If my eyes are unable to see you as my sister, it is because my own vision is blurred. And if that be so, then it is I who need you either because I do not understand who you are, my sister, or because I need you […]
The girl is mine for the next two weeks & this is how she kicked it off, gross. Maddy is my niece and she has always been my girl. Four of my brothers have children, but we since we didn’t grow up together, I’ve only recently had the opportunity to be in their children’s lives. But, I was there […]
Apologies: I haven’t been able to write for some time because I went through something life-changing and I came out the other end slightly damaged. So, I’ve been fighting, for what seems like forever. I’ve been trying to find ways to let it out so that I can get back to business/life as usual. […]